Day Four – Is This Too Much?

For months i have been suffering from bed rot. My lethargy is at another level. I work for a specialty pharmacy from home which is a Godsend. I can whip up emails when i get a moment’s wind and can do my job effectively. So the good news is, i am blessed with a job that allows me to work at my own pace. And Lord knows i need it.

What i need is less on my plate. I think we are all overwhelmed right now. Adding a daily chore of making a daily blog post might not make the most sense. But i still think it does.

My word count for yesterday? Zero. I did not have a good Sunday. Today will probably be the same. Is adding this daily blog post a bad idea since, it will, at times, take away from my actual fiction writing?

Maybe, but it gives me something i also need: more structure. What’s silly is, like i said earlier, i am so overwhelmed with life, i can use any of those aspects as ways of finding structure. No need to add another thing. However, i need to create blog posts and videos anyway, so i’m not really adding anything, just adding structure to something i already need to do.

Maybe shaming myself publicly about my lack of enthusiasm for daily life is what i need to do. Not insofar as i’m beating myself up publicly (although i am) but as to better reflect on where i’m at and what i’m doing to myself.

The only out i will give myself is that today is Martin Luther King Day. A holiday. So i shall give myself a kindness in that respect.

Tomorrow i donate my cat, much my own heartbreak and then i start in something exciting on Wednesday.

More on that tomorrow.

Remember, just getting by isn’t a failure, it’s a success. Especially in today’s Trumpian dark times.